무서워 ;

esok dah jun.

this weekend the family will fly to kuching. dua tahun. sedih bila fikir takleh jumpa umi abah selalu dah, si kenik & the other dongsaengs. kat tganu pun dah payah nak jumpa. ni xtau ah.

my cousin syahmi tengah kritikal kat husm. excident. umi cakap 50-50. suma orang tengah sedih. nak balik klantan, tapi ade kelas. ni lah part yang aku benci kalo amek shortsem ni. kalo ade pape hal jadi kat family pun xdapat balik. ponteng sehari pun dah layak dapat warning letter. haih. takut nak tengok fon. takut dapat berita buruk. nauzubillah.

i dun have other wishes. semoga Allah panjangkan umur dia, selamatkan dia. ameen.

الاسبوع الماضي

220510. gemilang muakha III. akhirnya selesai tugas handle catering. walaupun tak payah join aktiviti lain, kepenatannya adalah SUPER. sebelum subuh dah bangun. pukul 7am lebih dah buat air bagai. lepas buat air breakfast, cuci cawan suma pastu buat air lagi untuk lunch dan begitulah seterusnya. itu belum nak menempuh perasaan meroyan bila caterer tak datang ikut time. dan menghadap kanak kanak yang berlari menyerbu. memang haritu melekit gila. bukan sebab berpeluh. tapi memang literally melekit sebab gula. tak dapat bayangkan camne orang yang handle catering untuk 3 hari program. seramm. tapi bila suma orang cakap makanan sedap, air sedap, sangat2 puas hati. walaupun memang terang jelas dan nyata bukan aku yang tukang masak kan. hohoho. minggu ni tolong zuzue pulak. nak tebus balik air teh minum petang last week yang ter over panas sikit untuk lidah kanak kanak. hehehe.

230510. berjimba with adilah sulaiman. sorry kawan kawan tak cakap pun nak kuar. as usual, last minute plan. beli butang untuk cardi. next time kena singgah lagi giffyshop ni sebab nak beli clothpegs comel dorang. ada projek hehehe. shrek 4 was ohkay. tak sekelakar the previous ones. kali ni cam serius sket citernye.

sepanjang 2 minggu ni makan yongtaufu je. oh dengan roti hotdog babush. batuk & selsema buat selera makan down sket. sket je lah kan. kalau lagi 2 minggu continue makan ni je mungkin dah boleh quit jadi bangsa2 dan adik beradik 'boon' kot. hahaha :p oh serius aku kena buat sit up.

i wish i can name him. tapi takde idea. one thing popped into my mind bila tengok dia, eye-smile.

minggu depan. taknak fikir pape pasal minggu depan. aku tau aku kena buat perangai orang dewasa. tak boleh pun at least pura pura je lah. ape susah. need to do something for my arabic. markah midterm tak berapa nak bagus. walaupun lulus. mengenangkan effort ustaz jamsuri, dengan fotostat past years dengan latihan suma lagi, aku rasa kena bagi lebih lagi. sorry ustaz, saye try the best untuk final. hehe.

minggu ni lemau sikit. rasanya tengah musim kot. ramai yang batuk selsema demam. get well soon ye. minum air masak banyak2! ^^

toodles~!

gojitmal ;

i don’t know how to correct the past;
the best i can do now is attempt to erase it.
it might not work, but i have to try.

is ignorance really bliss?
i'm sorry if my ignorance hurt you
there is something wrong with my heart
i'm still in the middle of fixing and mending it
mianhe

*pic cr : XSugarfreeX@deviantart

170510 ;

aku kalau nama ubi ni dua ubi je aku layan. ubi kentang ngan ubi kayu. ubi keledek ke ubi keling ke salu kalo kat umah orang sua kat muka pun aku wat eksyen lagi. but i guess eating with a friend, it seems that the goguma tastes delicious to me (:

thanks for yesterday bestie. dekat2 pun setengah tahun sekali baru boleh jumpa kan. hehe.

friendship licence renewed~

sunshineelf ;

dia kejar aku pagi2 pas subuh. gila drama tak pagi2 buta main kejar2 ngan anak kucing. aku lari masuk bilik & bila kuar tengok dia da tetido depan bilik. comel je.

fave kerepek ubi black paper.

jqaf. gemilang muakha II. ajar anak orang iqra' senang je. tapi ajar tajwid? memang nak nangis. minggu depan maths. lagilahh. sebbaik minggu depan handle catering.

pakwe baru. ee cakap bnda2 camni kite kena bagi nama. so aku ingat nak bagi nama dia.. C.N BLUE lah. nampak cam hensem sket an?

this one's from ee. gomawoyo. (:

new lil friends. which aku akn hantar untuk jadi teman2 korang (:

berapa hari lagi dah nak masuk bulan jun. cuti 2 minggu after shortsem nanti kemanakah hala tuju? adakah tido baring harihari sambil terkebil2 memandang siling rumah gombak? nak berpoya2 takde duit. family nun jauh beribu2 kilometer (ribu ke?) belum pape lagi dah rindu. dah jangan nak fikir jauh sangat. tampo kang. final exam pun belum.

erkk final exam? esok kelas. dapat paper midterm. aduihhhh cuak. tido ah camni.

toodles~

ps: SELAMAT HARI GURU buat suma cikgucikgu yang pernah mengajar aisyah nadiah hasdi. terima kasih sebab jadikan saya yang harini. biggest gratitude to my ummi. youre the best teacher untuk kami berlima. loveyou (:

miinah ;

akhirnya MV dah kuar harini. aku belum tgk lagi snanye sebab nak tunggu loading. mungkin lepas aku bangun dari tidur petang kejap lagi boleh tengok dah. motif post sebelum tengok?

jap lagi aku busy study utk midterm esok lah.

tajuk lagu, miinah atau in english, Beauty. i wonder perkataan minah dalam bm dpt dari mana. haha. tapi aku konfius sket Bonamana ni nama album je ke atau pun bonamana & miinah membawa maksud yang sama ataupun tajuk lagu ni memang bonamana (miinah).

masa 1st time dengar haritu rase macam biasa je lagu ni tapi lepas dengar kali kedua i found that the song is actually quite addictive. ada yang cakap ada sikit2 macam sorrysorry & shinee's ringdingdong. macam lagu bollywood pun ada. haha. kalau tengok MV teaser takkan terfikir genre lagu ni macam ni. electro pop-ish sket. tapi yang kurang best lagu ni 90% autotune. nak beza suara pun susah. but i guess most kpop songs used autotune anyhow.

yang paling aku tunggu pastilah diorang punya dance steps. magnae kyu jadi one of the lead dancers eh dalam mv ni? coolness.

bonamana has been on worldwide trending topic list (apentah ayat aku ni) since the last 2 days. tadi aku bukak pun still ada lagi. shows how powerful ELFs are. walopon xde la sehebat justin bieber tapi at least dapat lah kalahkan die sket2. hohoho.

I MISS HANGENG! it would've been better if hangeng kangin & kibum ada sekali.

130510 4jib ;

070510. the new album's teaser will be released today. i know ELFs will be hogging on their lappys/PCs the whole day waiting for the vid. i should too. should i? hehe.

tapi sedih 10 members je yang terlibat untuk suju's 4th album ni. hangeng, kibum & kangin takde. honestly since hankyung contract termination case haritu aku dah kurang follow updates diorang. not that because i'm hangeng-biased so bila dia dah takde dah tak minat tapi aku sedih. kibum still busy with acting & kangin's still reflecting. but its good to know that all the members are missing them.

something to share:

► (because there are) everything that was there when we debuted, everything … ? ….. everyone that paid attention to us … ? ….. people !!!! … our fans that recieve attentions from others … and the existence of our dear members .. so there’s (now) .. now i want to rewrite a new history .. we’ll do it together right? ^^

( Leeteuk. twitter. 5th may )

► A day where I long for and miss everyone too much..
(Leeteuk. twitter. 4th may)

► Super Junior’s returning with our 4th album.. .. In my eyes no matter how you look at it three places are empty right? ..We’re working really hard!! Come quickly.. I miss you.. I miss..

(Leeteuk. twitter. 5th may)

►Although we’re separated in body [I] know we’ll always be together. Even if [you] don’t say I love you, [I] know that [you] do love. Even if [we] don’t say we’re one [I] know that we’re one. 13

(Donghae. twitter. 4th may)

►[Title]
Hankyung,Kangin,Kibum I love you^^
[Sidebar]
No matter what others say even if I’ve heard don’t want to (won’t) care about them .
13… & E.L.F
(Donghae. cyworld. 5th may)

This might even be something that no one cares about…or it might not be nothing…
Nevertheless at least the decision puts an end to our long agony.
We can’t put all details and our true feelings in each news article.
But as expected there’s a lot of talk going around.
It was all expected……..
We can’t just smile….but we believe it was the best choice.
And we don’t ever stop….no..we can’t stop.
For anyone who believe in us and waited for us…
For anyone who endured the tough times…
For anyone whose heart still hurts each time they look at this news article and pictures…
We can’t stop……I’m going to engrave the word ‘START’ in my heart once again.
[Eunhyuk's cyworld entry]

Today of all days I really miss a friend who is far away^-^ …that friend..and me i hope we will meet again when everything is fineㅋㅋ I’ll be nicer to him…and I’ve regretted a lot..everybody please be nicer to the friends who are beside you!! …really…^-^…it’s so sad…ㅋ
(heechul. twitter. 280410)


There is a friend of mine
Although his Korean is poor but his Chinese is very good
His singing is not so good but his dancing is excellent
I like cats while that friend likes dogs
I cant cook while that friend cooks very well
Although I curse everyday but that friend just laughs
But..
Time has passed and I have never been nice to him ㅋㅋ
I’m really sorry..
That I have never been nice to him when he’s still beside meㅋㅋ
I’m not a sentimental person in particular
I just got drunk while watching the tears fall out ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
It’s a very happy and precious thing when you have someone beside you
But me who is old and already grown-up still havent realized that
But
It’s late…I know it now..really..ㅋㅋㅋㅋ
It seems that beautiful words dont exist for nothing^-^
I miss you.. it seems that i’m going to write these words at times like this(-┏)
Me who didnt even cry when filming the sad scene
is now shedding the very hot tears
(heechul. cyworld. 280410)

Hello, it’s KangIn. How are you?
As you know, I am having a time to look back on myself. I am finally posting after several tries of erasing and writing again.
I really want to say that I’m sorry with my head bowing down to all of you who supported me and loved me all the way.
My days are now about regretting and reflecting on why I just went by so many things that are important to me.
I’ve had a lot to think about every time someone asked me if I was going to be part of 4jib activities.
As a result, I am finally posting this.
4jib album’s work is almost over, now waiting to meet the fans..
And for me, I thought that it was too early for me to take part in 4jib album activities and thought that I’d better have more time to think about myself… So I don’t think I’ll be seeing you guys for the upcoming activities.
The army.. where as a Korean man, you have to go once in your life..
I was wondering of when I should go and now I think it’s time for me to do so.
I don’t have an exact date, but I will be enrolling in the army in a short while.
But I’m always cheering for our members up close, and on the stage with them all the time.
The album was done by our members who tried really hard, so please give lots of love.
As KangIn cannot exist without Super Junior, Please give a lot of support and love.
I want to be back as soon as possible to be with the members so you guys can see it.
Please cheer for Super Junior, as it’s my beginning and end.
All of you fans make sure you stay healthy.
Hope everything works out for you.
I’ll be Back~~^^
(kangin. fancafe. 040510)

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i wonder whats the concept for the new album. suka rambut heechul, as well as teukie's. yang lain pun cam okay lah. tapi bila tengok eunhyuk punya rambut? buat aku teringat kat mr spock from star trek. kekeke. i want to see him with blonde hair.

okay ah malas nak membebel banyak.

the new album will be released on 130510. i'll be having my midterm on the very same day. so oppas, lets work hard together. hahaha :P

credit: sup3rjunior, twelfs

//update


the MV teaserrrr

sweetpotatoe ;

minit ke 8:37 boleh dengar lagu acha & irwansyah (ada cinta) as the background music. i feel slightly proud walaupun bukan indonesian. kekeke. :p penah gak la tengok korean punya variety show apentah die pasang lagu mocca. i guess producer dorang suka indonesian songs kot? hee.

anyhoo, i'm watching this mainly because of key-sshi. ^^

iiu punya wifi kat bilik ni signal strength nak excellent tapi kalau siang hari jangan mimpi nak streaming2. nak tengok citer personal taste!

050562 ;

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY

HAPPY TEACHERS DAY

please be healthy always. geonganghaseyo. i'm going to disappoint you again. sorry in advance. i know forever isnt enough for me to repay back all your sacrifices. jeongmal gamsahamnida.

semoga sentiasa dalam lindungan dan rahmat Allah s.w.t.

love you ummi (:

only cause we're the last one standing ;

sape yang hidup sezaman waktu bsb, 'nsync, westlife, spice girls tengah naik you might know this one. haha. aku pun tak ingat camne, i was actually youtube-ing on kpop music vids. titiba je ada kat tepi link lagu ni. dah totally lupa. aku ingat sume members dia dulu weyh. jodi, anika, linzi, michelle, nikki. it was like 10 years back. aku punya current obsession masatu. hehe. tapi ni pun bukan fave group, boleh plak kenal sume members dorang. kadang kadang cam terfikir, masatu just ada mags ngan radio je, internet ada tapi kegunaan tak luas sangat cam skarang. dengan mags & radio buleh kenal suma grup2 siap ngan nama penuh members skali. skarang ni kena bantuan internet.

ingat lagi dulu siap ada gang. THE KITTENZ. nama gang pn sempena group atomic kitten. haha. kami 10 orang. suka gila westlife. each one ada pair. 2 orang suka sorang ahli westlife. ada gabungan2 nama ngan ahli westlife. haha. aku shershane. sepatutnya shashane ntah sape tuka jadi sher. haha. skarang kalau fikir cam klakar. westlife brought us together aite? sebelum tu kat assunta aku tak pernah ada specific bestfriend. tiap tahun kelas tukar classmate tukar bestfren pun tukar. tapi bila a ada u guys, i know where to go tiap pagi sampai skolah. sampai skolah tak sabar nak jumpa. hehe.

still remember those fanfics zizi wrote. siap ber-chapter2. bila dia update rebut2 nak baca. tak silap leen & zetty pun tulis. i tried but failed. haha. kita siap tuka nama omputih dalam fanfic kan. nama pilih kat muka surat blakang2 kamus oxford advanced learner's. i remember mine was stephanie. since nama tu paling dekat ngan siti. (dulu masa skolah suma panggil aku siti) sampai skarang tengok perkataan stephanie pun tringat. hihi. zizi even lepas dia pindah perak pun still tulis cerita & pos. no wonder skarang dia seorang penulis yang bagus. hee. ferra leader gang. kami salu buat meeting belakang klas bila cikgu takde. cikgu pun tahu kami 1 gang.

sebenarnya banyak pasal kita boleh ditulis tapi dah makin banyak yang lupa. sedihnye. sepatutnya dari awal dulu masa ingat dah tulis. haih.

titiba rindu kat korang bile teringat suma ni. mazlin, zizi, fera, farisha, zetty, nadiah, arni, dania, eizzah. these girls were my bestest (i dont care if this word doesnt exist) childhood memory.


wah sumpah tak plan pun nak tulis pasal ni. i missed you girls. really.

replay, replay replay ;

aku memang suka warna pelangi & marshmelow-ish tapi takde ah terfikir nak cat blog ni jadi camni. aku lak takut tengok warna dia. macam keJAMBUan weyh. haha. tapi dah penat + mengantuk nak touch up balik. biar je ah camni.

dah mei. wow. time flies. sangat cepat.

bulan mei tahun lepas time time camni aku tengah meroyan buat research report final sem kolej. aku belum ada skype (masih digelar amish oleh ayol & the gang). & paling ingat current addiction kat youtube masatu, video KOQ!

hahaha sumpah rindu. atau bahasa kasar, vavilaaa RINDUUUU. aku tak pernah berjaya tengok vids ni sorang2. tapi kalau tengok dengan si dadah2 ulang 50 kali dalam sejam pun boleh gelak lagi. agaknya kalau tengok ramai2 lagi skarang ni kite gelak lagi tak?

aku ni jenis bila masuk bulan baru je aku akan ingat balik ape yang aku tengah buat tahun lepas pada bulan yg sama. sentiMENTAL lah katakan. hahaha. & thats why aku buat blog ni kot. incase aku lupa aku boleh tengok balik kat blog je.

tak pernah terfikir life mei 2009 ngan mei 2010 sangat sangat berbeza. apa yang aku fikir masatu dah tak fikir dah sekarang. apa yang aku harap masatu dah tak harap skarang.

lirik fave aku masatu:

That part of me left yesterday
the heart of me is strong today
No regrets im blessed to say
the old me dead and gone away
(t.i - dead & gone)

i really changed. lirik ni memang boleh digunapakai sekarang. aku memang tak ingat macam mana seorang aku setahun yang lalu berfungsi. aku dah tak ingat macam mana otak aku berfikir. mungkin perubahan yang tak obvious tapi aku dapat rasa la. & too bad aku tak pasti ianya kearah kebaikan atau tak. ada baik ada tak baik kot. yang pasti masatu, untuk berfikir tentang hari esok tak menakutkan macam skarang.


tapi goodthing aku still ada family & friends. still macam dulu.

& i'm very thankful for that.

tapi biasalah, dalam life, ada benda yang kalau boleh kita nak ulang2 banyak kali. ada yang kita taknak ingat lansung. aku kena belajar untuk mendelete benda2 yang tak best dengan lebih berhati2 supaya tak terdelete kenangan yang best.

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