pinjam sikit kekuatan?

taksukanya bila all that you can do is hoping for miracle. haih.

random 110117 ;

dah tengah bulan. mid term exam minggu depan. assigments due date minggu depan. satu hape pun tak study & buat lagi.

bulan ni memang mencabar kewarasan betul lah. nak kata busy camharem tu takdelah. sebab ramai lagi orang yang 2-3 kali ganda lagi busy dari aku. tapi the only masa free aku ada hari2 biasa adalah 1am ke atas. kadang sedih bila abah call 2-3 kali tak perasan. pastu bila perasan nak call balik dah lewat sangat. nak call siang abah busy pulak.

tak sempat nak keep in touch dengan sesape. even mesej mak sendiri pun tak sempat nak reply.

tau ramai yg terasa. mianhe.

and faham, kite manusia susah nak faham orang lain sebab all that we care adalah orang kena faham kite.

i dont want to give excuses. just let me be at fault.

curse me ;

I won’t forget my pain of being thrown away, I can’t forget it, you gave it to me (SHINee - Obsession)

i'll run away from things that remind me of the ugly past
because i just don't want to remember
bacause it hurts
curling into a ball with hands covering the ears
thats how sick i can get
you have no idea
you will not understand
because its not you
now that the wall i built for a long time has broken
theyre back haunting me
hatred is filling my head
i need some time
i need to build a new wall
please dont make me remember more
please dont..


my love cant come back to its original spot
its going as far as the amount of tears i cried
i have to forget that i miss you so much
even if you never know how much it hurts, I will forget

2NE1 - it hurts ;

ada rindu
ada marah
ada sayang
ada benci
ada sedih
ada sakit
ada gembira

yang kadangkadang lebih baik dipendam dari diluah.

sebab kadangkadang meluahkan akan memburukkan keadaan

dan kadangkadang

memendam & meluahkan wont make any difference.

kan best kalau perasaan yang berkumpul tu kita boleh buat macam makanan.

gigit

kunyah

telan

dan happy sebab kenyang.

fly to the sky ;

decided to tuang kelas arabic. but i still have 5 minutes to change my mind. agak bodoh bila titiba taknak pergi kelas padahal dah siap tinggal nak pakai tudung je. kalau masa ni still tengah tidur logik jugak tak sempat pergi kelas.

i have attitude prob. i know.

perasaan paling cool adalah bila...

...kita dapat tikam jantung sendiri berulang kali.

dah makan banyak sangat ubat untuk kebal sakit hati. i guess i was overdosed. i pretended too much that i forgot how painful pain actually is.

tahu tak rasa yang menyucuk kat hati tu? rasa macam kena tikam. sometimes its not easy to endure the pain. it feels like screaming or crying your heart out. apa yang awak perlu adalah terus pijak hati awak sampai hancur. believe me, you'll feel better that way.

aku dah biasa bunuh memori yang aku taknak ingat. sometimes ive killed the good memories within them as well. dan bila aku disuruh ingat, aku betulbetul tak ingat sikit pun. apa yang lebih menyakitkan adalah some of them were the promises i made. the promises that i vowed not to forget.

now u have the idea why i should remain in my sorrow?

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i'm still reading twilight. page 351.

ip task 4 still unfinished.

if i can make myself alive before 8 tomorow i'll prolly tag myself along with toona to her bowling tournement.

HAPPY HAPPIEST BIRTHDAY TO ARIF UMAR & MASWANHIZZANY.

goldy, sorry sebab aku sebenarnya nak buat entry khas on ur birthday. tapi tak sempat. tunggu eh. sayang ko sangatsangat. sayang ko jugak arep. ((: